Wow!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe that I made it another 2 weeks. I am so sad that both of my teammates were eliminated. I work out with Lynn my teammate and friend and we made a promise to each other that who ever was eliminated first we would continue on this journey together. Working out with someone really helps and pushes you to "GO FOR IT". Sometimes I just don't want to go to the gym but if I know I'm meeting Lynn there then I know I have to go and I have to work hard because she pushes me and kicks my butt. I will not give up, I don't know what place I am in but I hope I can keep it up.

The Dreadful Scale

Well tomorrow is the weigh in and I hope I did better this time. Sometimes you body just doesn't want to cooperate with what you are doing or want it to do. This week has been hard I don't know why but I am more hungry than I usually am. I get shaky and a headache. We went to a baseball game last night and I forgot my snack at home, so I ate sunflower seeds, now usually I don't eat sunflower seeds so I don't know how to get the seeds out of the shell with my mouth, I was picking the seeds out with my fingers, so trying to get those seed out of the shell took forever. I told my son if I had to eat these to survive all of my meals would run into each other. When you are trying to fit everything in meaning your family and their activities along with diet and exercising it doesn't leave any time. I think I need more hours in the day. I am not a night owl so I go to bed by 9:00 but I'm up at 5:00 for the day. Now you might say "She's nuts she's a stay at home mom, She should sleep in!!!!" Well, that is the only time of day that my house is quiet and I like to watch the news and get everything ready for the kids when they get up. Well, anyway I think I just needed to get some things off my chest or off my waist. I hope everyone has a great weigh in. Hang in there. Literaly everything seems to be sliding south.

I can't believe it!!!

I can't believe I am not the one who was eliminated, I put on a pound last week. I put this experience right up there with child birth and quitting smoking. I think I finally have my house in order at least for now. I thought everything was falling apart at first and all I could think about was getting to the gym and everything else could wait. I realized my family has to come first so, if I can't get to the gym, I can't get to the gym. It will always be there tomorrow. I think I finally got my thyroid meds fixed, at least I feel better. I also put red meat back in my diet. For some reason my body needs that. Well, I have been getting some positive feed back from some people and I so appreciate that. It makes you feel good because I know how hard I have worked and so I need to know it is working. For some reason I can't see the results myself, I can feel it in my clothes but I still look the same. Well, the next weigh in is a week from today. The week are just flying by. Thanks for everyones support I really appreciate it.

What How Did That Happen?

Well today was weigh in day and I gained a pound. What is going on? I had a thyroid test done last week and I got the results back it is very low so now I'm wondering if that contributed to this gain. I had been following the program and exercising more than I had to and I still gained a pound, I'm so disappointed. I'm not giving up I upped my meds and hopefully it will help. Problem is it takes the meds some time to work. Well, I'll write more when they post the results. God has a plan and I need to be patient and do my part remembering He is in control.

Wow!!!!! That's A Lot Of Weight

Well what a long week. We were so nervous about the weigh in but I made it to the second round. Two of my kids have been sick all week and trying to take care of them and fit in exercise has been very hard. With the help of my Mom I did it but now she is sick. I have to say I am just taking it one day or one minute at a time. I was sitting on the bench at the gym yesterday and I was looking at the dumbbells it dawned on me that one of the dumbbells weighs as much as the weight I have lost. I picked it up and couldn't believe that I was carrying around that much extra weight. When you watch those weight loss shows on TV they always say to look how much 10, 15, 20 pounds looks like and feels like, well it makes a huge impact on you when you actually lift it. I would encourage anyone to lift the weight you have lost. What a different and encouraging way to look at it. It makes you never want to go back. I do have to admit I hate doing cardio, Oh I do it but I hate it. I would much rather lift weights instead. One week to the next weigh in. Lord give my strength.

The First Weigh In "OH MY"

I tried to tell myself whatever happens happens but truth be told I don't want to hear my name on Monday morning. I want to stay in the competition. I'm having such a hard time with the food. What to eat and trying to get all my calories in. Tomorrow is the big day. We have all worked so hard and I don't know what the results will be. It will be hard on Saturday when we have our group session and one of us is not there. If anyone has ever watched the Biggest Looser on television all I could think about this week was "Last Chance Workout" which means work really hard on that last day to burn as many calories as you can. I didn't realize how this challenge would push me to try so much harder. I have made some great friends. Well, until tomorrow.

Hangin in There

This week was better than last week. The hunger pains aren't so bad but when I am hungry I can't wait to eat. I did notice when I'm not busy I want to eat everything under the sun. Exercise is going good even though some days I don't want to go but then I'm glad I did. I wish I could find more foods that I like I get tired of eating the same thing over and over Hey!! Maybe that is one of the reasons diets don't work I'd better hurry and find some other thing to eat. I have been following some of the other blogs and it's nice to know that I am not the only one that struggles. I have a terrible sweat rash under my arm and I can't seem to get rid of it. I have tried everything on it the only thing that does feel a little better is diaper rash cream of all things. It is kinda hard to do weights with you arm in the air. lol I'm not a very big vegetable eater but it came to me that when I eat vegetable soup why not put it in the blender so I don't know what I'm eating its actually pretty good. I feel the weight is coming off very slow I hope all of you are doing well. People say you didn't put the weight on over night BUT it is much more fun to put it on that take it off. lol

Rough Week

I had a really rough week. Monday and Tuesday were so hard. I was hungry, tired, and emotional. I thought I was going to be sick I was so hungry. I still went to the gym, it was hard but well worth it. On Wednesday I was feeling a little better. Still confused about food though. I went to the gym and worked out. It was my first session with Rocky, the trainer, by myself. On the way to find the trainer I saw one of my teammates on the treadmill so I went over to her to encourage her. I told her how hungry I was and asked if she was feeling the same way or having some of the same problems that I was having, well she just looked at me with a blank look on her face. I asked her if she was on the team for the KDUV Challenge and she said NO . Oh my, I made a mistake I was so embarrassed. I thought I recognized her. I apologized and walked away very quickly. I had only met my team twice and I didn't think my memory was that bad. Later I saw my teammate and I will not make that mistake again. The session with Rocky went good. I was was already sore from working out that past couple of days. So the rest of the week went well and I have a couple of friends I work out with so that always helps. Saturday we had our group session with Rocky at 8:00 a.m. I had woke up with a bad headache and I said to myself not right now I took some medicine it didn't help. When I got to the gym I started working out and it got worse so I excused myself and took more medicine it finally started feeling better I did not want to quit. After working out with Rocky three of us decided to stay and do the Zumba class. It was so much fun it is a cross between Salsa and Belly dancing. Matter of fact we liked it so much we decided to do it every week. I thought I had rhythm I don't. On Saturday I let my kids pick dinner and they chose tacos and brownies with ice cream and chocolate syrup and whip cream for dessert, oh my. I had sugar free jello and cool whip for my dessert. YUM YUM I dream about food every night.

The Big Day

Well to start the day I couldn't sleep because I was anxious about what to expect. I rode with one of my teammates to Visalia. She was running a little late so I called her and she had car problems so she made it to my house and we took my car. We got a little outside of town and we hit thick fog. We finally got to the radio station and I was so nervous. We went into a room where all the contestants were. Everyone was visiting and getting to know each other. The staff at KDUV were wonderful. It's so nice to put faces with a voice you listen to on the radio. Cari was so kind to let some of us shut the door while we were getting our pictures taken. One of the other contestants said she felt so violated we all laughed because it was true. I did decide to wear the tight shorts with the sports bra because I thought it would encourage me even more. After taking the group pictures we went and had our last meal (Ha Ha) at one of my favorite places to eat, Chili's. I had the country fried steak with mashed potatoes, corn on the cob, and garlic bread. I ate the whole thing.
I met the other contestants at the gym at 3:00. You know I've been a member of the gym for about 4 years, how sad I couldn't get my health in order in that length of time. Now is the time. We had to fill out paper work and get weighed and measured. Do you know that they pinch your fat on your arms, legs, and stomach to find out one of the measurements. Personally I have plenty to pinch. My weight was up further than I thought because over the last 2 or 3 days I ate and drank (sodas) whatever I wanted. Some of our team members decided to stay and work out. Let the game begin.
On Sunday, we were having a barbecue with family. I had to make a birthday cake and of course I make my own frosting which is very good and very sweet (I only took a tiny taste). I tried to stay in the kitchen and do dishes and be busy so I would eat the chips and dip and nachos and salsa. I also said a prayer. I was so hungry all day I felt sick. Someone told me to drink lots of water I think I must have drank 5 gallons. It didn't work, I was still hungry. Finally bed time.
Today went alot better except my family left all that food with me so I hope it goes bad fast. I tried to give it to my family after the barbecue but no one wanted it. I did go to the gym today.
What a journey God has chosen for me.

The Countdown is On

The countdown is on 3 days left till the dreadful picture. I'm looking forward to never looking like this again. I will work hard and I know that with the help of my teammates we will succeed. I can't wait to get started.
We went to Disneyland this weekend and we were taking pictures and I happened to be on a ride with my daughter. When I looked at the picture I couldn't believe that I actually looked like that, what a shock. I have not seen a picture of myself in a long time. There is no way I want to look or feel like this anymore. There is no way God wants me to feel like this anymore.

The Outfit

I am so nervous and so excited at the same time. I can't wait for the journey to begin. When I got the orientation rules I freaked at first. What?! Tight shorts and sports bra, you have to be kidding. So I went to the store and started looking for this tiny outfit I needed to wear, and much to my surprise I could not find them in my size. I went to Lane Bryant which they had the right styles but my size was not on the rack. I went to another Lane Bryant store and they don't carry tight shorts and sports bras. I went to JC Penneys and I couldn't find my size, lots of options for smaller sizes, though. Today I'm going to look on the internet and hopefully I will find what I am looking for. I need to remember that God is in control. I am sure I will find what I need. God has given us this opportunity and we need to run with it.

KDUV and In Shape Challenge

Just wanted to see if the blog is working. I am hoping to compete in a weight loss challenge. I will find out Friday at 7:40 a.m. I'm really excited and I know God has a plan. I'll just have to wait till Friday, so meanwhile patience, patience.